Coatingsarecrack
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I'm not entirely sure if I have done the right thing here, and I don't want to jinx things, but say hello to baby Olly..................
In my toddler days, I grew up with a tri-colour Cocker, who Mum and Dad had before I was born. We were inseparable, he was like my big brother. When Faych came along, the roles were reversed, I was big brother. I've had a few people suggest getting a Golden Retriever or Labrador, but my heart is with Cocker's, they just suit my nature. It was never really a choice here.
Having said all of that, I feel somewhat guilty, as if I'm replacing my Faychie all too soon. It breaks my heart over and over again every time I think of him as I go about things we would do together, like I'm leaving him behind. I know this is not a rational thing, but I just can't help it. But if he is watching over me, I know he wouldn't want me to be sad, or that no other dog would experience the same love and treatment he got from me.
Over the past week, I've had so many people reach out, something I will never forget. Everyone goes through a loss differently, and those who provided advice gave me something to think about. One in particular explained how he mourned a loss for several years before finding a new companion, which to me sounds like hell. As it stands, I'm so lost without my shadow. While Faych can never be replaced, I know I need that presence in my life, someone to love, someone to follow me around, someone to make me smile, someone to comfort me, someone to care for.
Right here, right now, I'm not ready. But then I don't want to wait indefinitely for the "right" time to come up, progressively getting more and more lost and depressed. I'm a week in and feeling more settled, more accepting of what happened. There is peace in knowing Faych will never leave my heart and mind. By the end of January when Olly will be able to come home, I know I'll be in a different frame of mind. As I type, I have a mixture of nerves and excitement, but still a sense of sadness and guilt.
Olly was born in late November to Mumma Lola and Pappa Ernie. He will develop into a blue roan or white-black bi-colour. I've seen both parents in action, and the way each pup is being treated and prepared for their forever homes.
As mentioned earlier, I had so many people reach out, provide advice, tell their stories. Please know each and every word helped. I always knew I'd be crushed the day Faych left me, but I never knew how hard it was going to be or how I'd deal with it. So a big thankyou to all that helped me over the last week, the spectrum of stories and advice got me through and got me thinking about the future.
Deyon,
Your a great dog owner and I’m absolutely sure Faych had a wonderful life. Just as if you had left him early you’d want him to find an amazing friend to love and take care of…. He wishes the same for you.
And as for how he feels about replacing him… not only would he want you happy he would love that another gets to experience the life he had…. Be sad… but know you are doing nothing wrong as you said..,
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