Wow Vinny, don't know where to start dude. Not been on the forums much lately and just found the thread. Was going to congratulate you and then read on to find the other news. Oh wow.
Keep the faith my man, I can tell you that THAT matters more than anything. My Mother was diagnosed, stage 4 adenocarcinoma of the lung back in early 99. She walked a very close walk with the Lord. Not wanting to do any treatment at first, then just dove in head first. Her thing was though that ONLY if she had the strength to do it would she do it. She drove an hour 1 way for 32 or 33 of her total 36 radiation treatments, BY HERSELF because that is the way she wanted it. Then 6 of 7 chemo's (that was 15 minutes away) she drove herself to and from.
The one thing that she didn't want to do was lose her hair, and if it meant that she would, she was NOT going to take any treatment. She was a hairdresser her entire life. (They raised me owning 3 salons.) But did she lose her hair? No she did not!

One small spot behind her ear was all that ever fell out.
The doctors couldn't explain it.
Fast forward 3+ years and she was cancer free, (for a while).
The doctors couldn't explain it. Her oncologist finally came to tell her that they had been lying to her. Not about the cancer, not about it being gone at the time, but about HOW LONG she had in the early days.
This is what he said one day to us:
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Medicine is about what thy have in black and white. As Doctors we all depend on what is in front of use in black and white. Pages and pages of text books, tests, screens and screens of data all in black in white. All of it told us you wouldn't make it 6 weeks at best."
Then he went on to apologize to her (and me) to tell us that in the beginning, when he told her/me that she had 9 months, maybe more with treatment that he wasn't being truthful.
The reason I say this is it is a matter of faith AND medicine. Medicine does it's job and faith surely does it's own job as well. He admitted to us that day that not only was Mom cancer free, but he had no idea how long it would be, and he had learned to put it in God's hands with US. It was strange as he was very emotional that day. When I mentioned it to his charge nurse she of course told me that she couldn't tell me (what was going on) but that HE had just found out someone in his own family had cancer.
I looked at his nurse that day and told her, "It's ok, he's just trying to figure out where Mom has been carrying her mustard seed."
Matthew 17:20
He said to them, “Because of your little faith. For truly, I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.”
Matthew 13: 31-32
He put another parable before them, saying, “The kingdom of heaven is like a grain of mustard seed that a man took and sowed in his field. It is the smallest of all seeds, but when it has grown it is larger than all the garden plants and becomes a tree, so that the birds of the air come and make nests in its branches.”
Faith of Mustard seed.
Faith can indeed move mountains, and my Mom ended up 4 years 5 months after her initial diagnosis leaving us. Vinny that doesn't translate to you I know, because there is no cure for what she had, PERIOD. But there IS for you.

You have no worries my brother, but to use these days to keep your faith, and grow it stronger. Times like this, are when we are tempered and made stronger.
Take care,
Tony