I had a really down day like yours last weekend. I waited all year for Fords at Carlisle last weekend. It was the 20th anniversary of the SVT program. We have a 96 SVT Cobra.
I have chronic pain from 3 lower back surgeries and 1 failed neck surgery. I wanted to correct and detail my car all week for Carlisle. Well for some reason I was in agony all week with back pain and on top of that several nights of no sleep. The car was quick detailed from a local show so it was good enough. Saturday comes, absolutely beautiful day after 3 days of rain. I hadn't really slept in 48 hours and was really hurting. By 1pm I realized if I went I'd probably fall asleep at the wheel and hurt someone so I stayed home. Most of my local Mustang club went for all 3 days and had a great time. So I was really depressed about it.
I had found my calling in life years earlier. My wife and I built a Photography Studio business from the ground up. We had a great studio, good business, and got to work together every day. A nightmare for some, but we loved it. We had to give it up when I could no longer work because of my back. I'm still trying to find a reason to get out of bed. I was a drummer in a band, loved it and made some nice extra money. Great stress release. Had to give that up too.
I've tried several times to get together with our own Tuscarora_Dave who graciously offered to mentor me. But every time some medical issue stopped that. Someday I'll get there and learn how much is enough when it comes to paint correction.
So now I play 30 minutes a week in the church praise band 2 blocks from my house. That's been a blessing. No matter how bad I feel or down, I always feel better after playing or practicing. I even got to play with a guy who used to play with Carlos Santana!
So th3m Bonz, do you have an outlet that doesn't require perfection like detailing? Something you do just for fun? I see you list music as one of your likes. Do you play?
Perhaps you could pick up a Craigslist beater for your DD. I'm into Mustangs and one of the Mustang mags has a project now where they are building a sleeper car with great mechanicals but leaving the body as a door dented, scratched beater, so you don't care where you park it.
Or perhaps like my wife is always telling me you could find some balance in volunteering at a food kitchen, animal rescue, or teach basic car skills to youth.
Like everyone else already offered up, take some time off and it will get better. Don't sell or give away your detailing supplies, you will be sorry and only end up buying them again.
Take care, Spiney-Dave